I feel like life is finally beginning to become normal again. The biggest relief is that work has slowed down a bit, and I'm feeling more comfortable with our merged departments and new duties. Don't get me wrong there's still a lot of bugs to be worked out which may take the next year, but I have reached a level of comfort and confidence that makes work less stressful than it was four weeks ago.
One thing that has made all this transitioning a lot easier (for me, probably not for Mike) is that Mike has been working at night, so he's been home during the day to be with the kids when I wasn't able to work from home, which happened a lot this month. So I'm very grateful he often graciously offers to drop somebody at preschool or swimming and play Mr. Mom for me. Although part of me, the evil part, secretly is getting her revenge on days when he works all night and then watches the kids all day.
Two years ago we were in reversed roles, and I was working all night, watching the kids all day, hoping I didn't fall asleep in the procession of cars at preschool drop off, hiding my puffy eyes behind the biggest pair of sunglasses I could buy. I whined and moaned all year long about how hard it was to try and get eight hours of sleep in two hour increments while the sun was shining, so I get to say, see know you know what it feels like, don't you wish you were nicer to me? Ok so I haven't actually said that out loud, because I'm not that vindictive, but I can't help it if the though crosses my mind. Sometimes I feel like Anne Shirley who says " I know I chatter (in my case complain) on far too much but if you only knew how many things I want to say and don't. Give me some credit."
On the other hand, I really miss him. It feels like I say hello to him in the morning when he gets home, we go our separate ways for the day, then he's asleep, and at the end of day, I wash my face, hop into bed, and say goodbye to him as he leaves for work and we do this dance all over again. Two more weeks to go, and he'll have a permanent day shift Monday-Friday and I am counting down the days to when we will get to spend more than five minutes together.
Anyway, my schedule won't be changing for another five months, and it's good I'm starting to feel settled after the first four weeks. I'm getting back into my workout routing, yes I know it's bad when this is the first week I've worked out since the week of Christmas, but hey give me credit for starting again. Speaking of starting again hoping to get back into my blogging habit, my apologies this probably isn't very entertaining, but I've got to start somewhere, and if I worry about what I write, nothing would ever get posted. I'm doing a writing group with a couple friends, so hopefully I will have some more interesting content to post soon. Happy end of January, I'm so glad it's almost behind me!