Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Back in the Swing of Things

I feel like life is finally beginning to become normal again. The biggest relief is that work has slowed down a bit, and I'm feeling more comfortable with our merged departments and new duties. Don't get me wrong there's still a lot of bugs to be worked out which may take the next year, but I have reached a level of comfort and confidence that makes work less stressful than it was four weeks ago.

One thing that has made all this transitioning a lot easier (for me, probably not for Mike) is that Mike has been working at night, so he's been home during the day to be with the kids when I wasn't able to work from home, which happened a lot this month. So I'm very grateful he often graciously offers to drop somebody at preschool or swimming and play Mr. Mom for me. Although part of me, the evil part, secretly is getting her revenge on days when he works all night and then watches the kids all day.

Two years ago we were in reversed roles, and I was working all night, watching the kids all day, hoping I didn't fall asleep in the procession of cars at preschool drop off, hiding my puffy eyes behind the biggest pair of sunglasses I could buy. I whined and moaned all year long about how hard it was to try and get eight hours of sleep in two hour increments while the sun was shining, so I get to say, see know you know what it feels like, don't you wish you were nicer to me? Ok so I haven't actually said that out loud, because I'm not that vindictive, but I can't help it if the though crosses my mind. Sometimes I feel like Anne Shirley who says " I know I chatter (in my case complain) on far too much but if you only knew how many things I want to say and don't. Give me some credit." 

On the other hand, I really miss him. It feels like I say hello to him in the morning when he gets home, we go our separate ways for the day, then he's asleep, and at the end of day, I wash my face, hop into bed, and say goodbye to him as he leaves for work and we do this dance all over again. Two more weeks to go, and he'll have a permanent day shift Monday-Friday and I am counting down the days to when we will get to spend more than five minutes together.

Anyway, my schedule won't be changing for another five months, and it's good I'm starting to feel settled after the first four weeks. I'm getting back into my workout routing, yes I know it's bad when this is the first week I've worked out since the week of Christmas, but hey give me credit for starting again. Speaking of starting again hoping to get back into my blogging habit, my apologies this probably isn't very entertaining, but I've got to start somewhere, and if I worry about what I write, nothing would ever get posted. I'm doing a writing group with a couple friends, so hopefully I will have some more interesting content to post soon. Happy end of January, I'm so glad it's almost behind me!

Saturday, January 11, 2014

"The Law of Undulation"

Work has won the battle of my time, again. Today felt like I fried my brain attempting to keep up with changes within my department and the effects of new FAA rules for pilots (if you don't know what that is, you should click the link to find out before the next time you take a flight). This resulted in tears silently dripping onto my desk as I continued to work. Flight cancellations are piling up, and I can feel the need for mandatory overtime growing and beckoning.

I am so grateful though for the caring people I work with, especially when they text on days like to today to see how I'm doing, and drive into work to help the operation and rescue me. You know who you are, I'm so lucky I get to work with you. So these pages might see some neglect again, but these things are always temporary, chaos cannot last forever.

As CS Lewis says in the The Screwtape Letters, "Has no one every told you of the law of undulation? . . . . the repeated return to a level from which they repeatedly fall back, a series of troughs and peaks...." For the full text click here. Even though CS Lewis is writing about spiritual lows and highs, I think the same concept applies to times of stress and contentment, we are constantly switching between the two for the duration of our lives. I know after this trough of stress, a peak of contentment will eventually follow.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Sledding redneck style

I've been MIA all week. In my defense, even my family hasn't seen me much either. Probably anybody who works for an airline hasn't had time for blogging let alone breathing this past week. Work wise it's been a challenging New Year! I was looking forward to cutting back on my hours in 2014, but the opposite has been true so far with mandatory overtime implemented six days straight. I feel like I can finally take a breath today and relax. In the spirit of being lighthearted, I thought I'd share what we did on New Years Day before all this chaos began. Enjoy!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Overdue Acne Update

My first post about this was back in October, so I'm a a little overdue, but to be honest I wanted to wait until I had better results, and I do. Although, the stuff I tried did come with side effects. The two topical creams not so much, but the testosterone suppressant was full of unexpected surprises.

I was warned that my potassium level could dip and if it did, I would feel "weird" and to watch out for that. My experience instead was nausea. I actually wondered if I was pregnant after the first few weeks, okay not really, but the nausea did rival morning sickness. Still, I decided I could handle a little dizziness.

Then it started to mess with my cycle which was great because that month somehow my body bypassed it's cyclicatory PMS mood swing/depression, bonus! After the first month I was pretty happy with the side effects (the nausea was also making me want to eat less and I lost a few lbs). The next month, nausea was in full force and I couldn't keep my cookies down.

That's where I draw the line. No amount of puking makes any of that worth it, so I stopped taking them until I felt like myself again. They also did a great job of clearing up my face, which is why I began taking them again in a lower dose, and so far no nausea at all this time. Now I'm just praying it lasts.


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

New Year Resolutions Updated

If you can remember a month ago,which I cannot, and had to re-read this post  all over again to remember what those five resolutions. I know, I'm not off to a good start if I can't even remember what my resolutions were, but not matter how behind I am, here's the update to those goals.

#1. I stopped tracking calories after a week, using the excuse that it's too time consuming and I would just make better choices with food. That backfired with all the Christmas goodies floating around our house and I gained one pound since said goal setting. So my re-resolution is again to make healthy choices and not track calories, but I've printed out motivational quotes to tape to the fridge and around the house to help me remember to make the better choice.

#2. The Monopoly store is in full swing and Hunter loves it. We have been more consistent, and made substantial progress. He's learned all 26 letters, got a handful of sight words under his belt, can count to 100, and write to 20, this is major progress!

#3. I did pretty good with this one and stayed on track until last week, the week of Christmas. Missed a workout, got a cold and didn't work out the entire week. I'll get back on track this week.

#4. Haven't gone to the temple yet, had FHE, or done family scriptures yet. Beginning next week our work schedules both change so we're going to try early morning reading, so we'll see if we're more successful. I get to go to a wedding this week, does that count as temple attendance? FHE will still be tricky, Monday night I'll still be working, but working at home, so we'll see how well I can multi-task.

#5. The last grateful list in my journal was December 11th, so clearly I need some extra work in this area as well.